Life in General

Life holds so many ups and downs. Sometimes we wonder what is happening in our lives and other times we just cry and hold on knowing that this to shall pass. I wish I had the answers but I do not know how it all goes together. Even I have days of wonderment and I just have to ride them out. I have spent the last four days in Minnesota and most of it I have been sick with my sinus and feeling panicky because I am sick away from home. I guess it has placed me in that category of I know this to shall pass but I still get pissed off because I cant enjoy myself because I feel so miserable inside and out! Again, I know this too shall pass but it makes me come off being such a wimpy person and I am a strong woman. The only thing about that is that I feel stronger when I am at home and not sick. Life has a lot of twists and turns that we have to go through in order to find out where we are actually suppose to fit. What is our purpose in life becomes a whole different perspective. God blesses us with ups to give us hope and with downs to make us stronger. Sometimes I just find myself shaking my head and wondering why I got up that particular morning. Then there are other days that I am so blessed and thankful for each new face that encounter. My trip has been stressful, both personnally and professionally in contact. I enjoy life but I sometimes feel stunted in growth because I find myself respecting others to much. I deny what I know in order to make them feel important and not sound like such a know it all. I also give in and try to pick my battles wisely when all I really want to do is fight and say you know what, I want to be in control for just a little while. Life can be fun and wonderful and insightful but it can also be a struggle. Life in general, is beautiful but always full of choices and some of those choices just dont seem to fair but then again nobody said life was fair.