Breath of a Word

Sometimes we forget about life and how hard sometimes it is to get through each day. We can find ourselves stuck in an existence that holds our emotions at a stand still. Some times we can find ourselves blind and numb to the effects of our behaviors or our words around others. It is easy to forget that each face in this world is there for a reason and they touch each other in ways that we can not truly understand. We are all looking for a little bit of faith. For a warm touch whether it is from the heart or from an actual warm touch. Give what you feel because sometimes it is what is needed for somebody at that very moment. We may not always understand what we are completely saying, doing or why we can care so deeply when we have been hurt so badly. We must have faith in what this world has to offer. Those who are beside you have a meaning in your life just as the ones that you are beside. Each day we share a smile or a tender hello and we can become so busy that we tend to forget that everyone in this world leads a separate life as well as a complex individual life. None of us are suppose to be the same. Give from your heart when you see your neighbor, your coworker, a stranger in a store or even those whom you consider to be your worst enemy. Pull them close because you never know when you may need their smile. When you may be at your lowest point ever and you just need a smile or a breath of a word. Say whats on your mind but don't upset the world just because you can. The world has enough complications along with its beauty if we just look to find the beauty with a sprig of hope and an ere of faith for tomorrow!

Grow a little

Its sad sometimes too feel so much on the inside that you wonder if it is wrong at the time. Is it alright to laugh and smile under so much stress and wonderment of what tomorrow brings? I know that God has a plan for everyone in their own time but sometimes I have to admit that there are those of us who want to control what we are doing. Learning to laugh again without fear is a beautiful warm fuzzy and I am sure it is a blessing for a reason. Having the ability to choose is a freedom, a luxury of living. It is also a tool that can hurt others. The choices we make are the reactions that we have to live with. So, what happens when you choose to learn about others? When we choose to experience something about life that makes you feel giggly and alive again? Pain is a powerful thing and can come with the wrong choices. Bottom line: Life is about living and feeling and sometimes breaking free to make those choices. A woman of pain I don't feel that I have or could ever be. A woman of delays,yes, when it means that I have to hurt someone that has been a part of my life almost since birth. The choice was made before the laughing and teasing ever came about. The only difference now is that some honor has to be present for everyone in making choices and its the trusting and the believing that should make a person want to do whats right. So believing that what happens is from the heart that feels a tug of uncertainty about pain to another has to be a normal feeling and a way to not introduce further pain. Strength is earned and has to be desired and sometimes its truly developed by knowing that your doing what you have to do because you love someone enough to not hurt them any more. Sometimes you have to love life for yourself or you are never going to see what the flow of a heartbeat truly can be. It doesn't always have to be so hard and you don't always have to be the one to suffer so someone else can be happy. Everyone has a time and a place to fly and sometimes you have to take a chance and grow a little!

A Rare Breed

My heart sometimes gets lost in what I am thinking and feeling. If you smile because you haven't heard from a friend for a while, is it wrong. No, I don't think so. Its OK for a friend to make you miss a piece of yourself. My friend brought with him smiles even though I couldn't hear his words. I could read them and remember how he made me feel when we were young. Such a wonderful warm memory of then things that I should have probably said to others that I didn't. There are people in this world that can not ever be replaced. But at certain times in our lives we cross paths. Its kind of Gods way of saying a little reminder to our memories of lives beauties. There is always a little good with the bad and vice versa.My heart holds a footprint for this person that I smile about because even a few words surprised my emotions on how much I missed the times together as we were all kids. A day in the park of watching the guys as us girls or ladies sometimes do. I remember a certain day, a different day, a bike ramp corner next to a picnic shelter. What was he doing? Standing by his bike, sitting on the bike? Only a brief memory without the shape and moves of the details,but it stayed in my memory. It stayed and I guess I lied a little. I do remember hearing that he had moved because I remember being a little sad. I was just starting to really get to know him and then he was gone.
Now I smile but for a different reason. I have never met a man as unique and funny as he appears to be. Real and perhaps OK with what ever mistakes he may make. I love the thought that as I carry this simple memory from the past with me, I NEVER KNEW WHAT AN ENJOYABLE MAN HE WOULD GROW TO BE. I am glad I have had a chance to not miss out on these few days of smiles and chuckles and laughs. If tomorrow was to fade away I would still have the blessing of the older version. Weird as I may be, a tear comes to my eye because my soft heart gets to me. This time Lord, I pray that all will be well and that perhaps this time you may let us laugh and enjoy each others company. Friends are never enough in my life and this one is definitely a rare breed that I Would like to get to know better than the first time. Laughing and smiling is always a way to spend my life.