Grow a little

Its sad sometimes too feel so much on the inside that you wonder if it is wrong at the time. Is it alright to laugh and smile under so much stress and wonderment of what tomorrow brings? I know that God has a plan for everyone in their own time but sometimes I have to admit that there are those of us who want to control what we are doing. Learning to laugh again without fear is a beautiful warm fuzzy and I am sure it is a blessing for a reason. Having the ability to choose is a freedom, a luxury of living. It is also a tool that can hurt others. The choices we make are the reactions that we have to live with. So, what happens when you choose to learn about others? When we choose to experience something about life that makes you feel giggly and alive again? Pain is a powerful thing and can come with the wrong choices. Bottom line: Life is about living and feeling and sometimes breaking free to make those choices. A woman of pain I don't feel that I have or could ever be. A woman of delays,yes, when it means that I have to hurt someone that has been a part of my life almost since birth. The choice was made before the laughing and teasing ever came about. The only difference now is that some honor has to be present for everyone in making choices and its the trusting and the believing that should make a person want to do whats right. So believing that what happens is from the heart that feels a tug of uncertainty about pain to another has to be a normal feeling and a way to not introduce further pain. Strength is earned and has to be desired and sometimes its truly developed by knowing that your doing what you have to do because you love someone enough to not hurt them any more. Sometimes you have to love life for yourself or you are never going to see what the flow of a heartbeat truly can be. It doesn't always have to be so hard and you don't always have to be the one to suffer so someone else can be happy. Everyone has a time and a place to fly and sometimes you have to take a chance and grow a little!