Tomorrow will be better

Some people can say that they hear us, understand us, appreciate us but still never really feel who and what we are really about or even pay attention to how bad they hurt us. It doesn't matter what happened to me, Its more just the fact that My heart hurts because something that matters so greatly to me feels as thou who hurt me were saying "Just tell her, she will deal with it and get over it." How untrue the thought is. Sometimes I still get surprised by how insensitive people in this world can be. I realize that I am not perfect but I do my best to look at others and see what binds their souls to pain and what releases their inner self. I love those who hurt me or it would not hurt so much. The last few years has been about opening my eyes and seeing opportunities pass me by. There are days that I just cant believe the pain that we as humans endure. What is light weight to some is life altering to others. My tears need to continue to flow for now. I need to release the pain and misunderstanding that I feel. Just for today, I need to feel sad and to cry so that I can make sure that tomorrow I do not feel the same numbness. Life is not easy, especially today. I now it will get better. Survival is not an option it is a direction. But for today, let me cry. Let me hurt. Let me be to myself. Haven t I earned the right for just one day. I know tomorrow will be better.I guess God decided that he had to scream at me to get me to listen. Now, that thought brought more tears but a smile to my face. My mom would call that stubbornness and maybe a sign of the times changing ahead for me. Tomorrow will be better!!!!!!!!!

Life

Life has a way of telling us if we are allowed to feel or hold what it has to offer us. I have not wrote in my journal for a while now and a lot has changed over that time period. The loves of my life are ever changing in my depth but the here and now of what the world holds for me is what is amazing to me. The old and new friends! The old and new lessons combining within each other. Wow, what a life and all it has too offer! You have to love life as if there was ever another choice!

And Today

Today holds what tomorrows bring to us as hope. I am unsure that the world knows what is right and wrong but it supplies us with plenty of options. If we can take some time to read what the world says in each day as we interact with the life around us. Hunt for what is meant to be not what we mean for it to be! Smile and honor the stranger who becomes the friend!

Life Without Her

Todays the day that I slow down and remember who she was and how she made me. She was my best friend and could always sense when I had questions and was troubled. I was only twenty-one years old when I lost my mother. She was beautiful on the inside and the out. She had a heart that made it seem as if she could hold the worlds problems in her hands and make all the bad disappear. She was so kind and loving. My heart yearns for her touch. She was such a strong woman and she never knew a stranger. I loved her so much and my heart has a hole so deep that only in my dreams can it be filled. I miss her so greatly. I only make it through the rough times because of the strength that she shared with me and the wisdom that she passed down to me and now me to my son. Non of us are perfect but this is my log to honor my mother by sharing what wisdom she has left with me. She is my inspiration for all that is worth living. She was a woman of courage and as I know and will always remember, she is and will remain the wind beneath my wings.