Thursday, January 12, 2012

To tell someone you love them comes from the heart but to tell another that you hate them comes from the mouth of regrets! You never know when impulse makes us be haunted by stupidity of not thinking before we speak!
Love doesn't always mean being right or wrong! Its about compromising for the better good and the life ahead that you build as two! Always remember to love the one your with and to never forget that you are individuals....so having your own opinion is a blessing....however pick your moments to expression...sharing a life takes two!
At that very moment that love warms your heart....even for a brief second....you realize that living,.... is worth all the challenges that God puts before you!

Never Alone


Before my mom died when I was 21 she hugged me and mouthed the words I love you to me....That was the longest yet shortest hug she ever gave me! The moment that will live on forever in my heart when it aches for her. Moms may not always agree with us but God made them to teach us and love and comfort us...not to let us roll over them with disrespect... She will always be my friend and the true love of my life. I hope down deep that my son will always feel the same about me.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

A Beginning to an End

The world has so many ups and downs to offer us in a lifetime. When in recall, a single day can hold your highest and lowest moment. To realize that we are all made different for a reason can give us so many over whelming thoughts.Why do we question not only who we are but who our neighbors or even our own children are. If we live our lives trying to decipher every trial and tribulation that God lays out before us then where is the time for us to just simply enjoy what he has given us at the moment? There will always be highs and lows...happiness and sadness. These are the emotions and challenges in our lives that keep us humble and reminds us to give what we wish to be given....a human touch....a word of encouragement to another...a smile on a cold day when we feel that we cant take on another day of misery or discussion. We learn and educate each other from what we observe around us! Someone is always watching! We find ourselves wondering why sometimes we are handed down the life that we receive but the truth is that all of us fit into a puzzle....a right and fitting puzzle...One that we belong too even when we may feel left out of place or alone.
This last year has given us so many challenges, yet the rewards for some of us for our struggles can easily be over looked. To all my friends and family that have touched my life in the last year......Thank you for loving me even at times that maybe neither one of us deserved the love and understanding. Its a special thing to love someone unconditionally and for those close to my heart...YOU ARE LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY! God has never specified who I could or should let into my life....He gave us all free will to mold our lives and to touch others as they touch us...But don't think that he isn't the orchestra behind your encounters. For many of us we may carry baggage over the years and become very tainted about some areas of life but for the most of us we know right when we see it! We know how to treat others and how we want to be treated. For this next year, for its a frame of mind and could even be for the rest of our existence, choose to be the "RIGHT" ONE to lead not follow...to stand up and not fall under pressure...to remember not only our beginning but also our end.... to show what life has to give for all those who are observing....then make a promise not only to ourselves but to the legacy of friends and family that we leave behind to make a better world to live in! To find a way to make a difference happen and mean more than just words. Be the one to smile at the person next to you even though they may be the most demised to all you know. Stop and pay it forward for what you have been given! Blessings are sometimes not immediately identified but they are there....lying beneath what yet is to be revealed. Make this next year be the Beginning to the end of your teaching others to lie dormant....Grow and stand up to offer the world around US a shape of what life has to offer! You CAN BE THE ONE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN ALL THE AREAS THAT YOU FEEL NEED YOUR INSIGHT! GUIDE WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN! THINK ON ALL THE POSSIBILITIES AND HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS AND MAKE IT A WONDERFUL NEW START TO MANY NEW YEARS! ONE VOICE......YOUR VOICE..... CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE! BELIEVE A LITTLE! YOU MIGHT BE SURPRISED WHAT YOU CAN DISCOVER! Remember to love often and true! I look forward to the new year and seeing what it holds for us all! Merry Christmas
Kim & Family 2011

Monday, October 3, 2011

In our Worlds

Challenges are many in our world but the greatest ones are made up of learning about those around us. We all live differently and we all really do come from different worlds. After four nights and five days in the big city so many things came to light.

You can observe the mounds of people from corner to corner but to see them as individuals can seem to hard to bare at times. As we walked down the streets we saw one different face after another but quite often we were told not to look the ones in the face that were of a suspicious nature. My question is, define suspicious?

A face of a different color or a language of another. There were groups of gathering and then there was aloneness, So many yet so few. Sad feeling came over us to see and eat in so many wonderful top notched restaurants and on the same night to see old bones and left- overs dug out of the trash cans on the streets. People, happy and laughing on the street side as they ate and just a few feet from them were others in doubt of their survival from day to day.

On Michigan Ave so many beautiful and expensive luxuries to grace the home and pull from the pockets yet we saw gold and silver as they panhandled on the street side to the sound of music. For a moment you were entertained until the whistles blew and the men in blue came.

The true beauty of the city was the reminder that human touch means the same in any place. The love and development, the guidance of a child and their mother. The holding of the hand of the one your with and the laughing and smiling as they walk hand in hand. The kindness of a simple person. So many lovers of mans best friend even right down to their own parks and walks, many more in the city then expected.

Now away from all the evidence and back into this real world the city will not be forgotten. The experience is one of many blessings and new discoveries that have become new to others. A story to tell has many avenues and this one will be held as an adventure of still more visits to come.

An Attitude of Unintentional

So much to do, she was running from place to place and side to side. She knew she was on a time limit. Too watch her you could see her dedication yet she was tired already and she had just begin her adventure for the day. She was so young with so many responsibilities. She handled them well but there were always moments of frustration. She was beautiful and duty bound. First she had the cupcakes to prepare. Did she buy the gift? Well, of course she did. It was her daughters third birthday after all. She was prepared but there were many tasks at hand for the day. Cupcakes in the oven, out of the oven and icing, colored or no. Yes, blue was her favorite with some pink and purple. They had to match her tutu.
Ok, cupcakes done and balloons were awaiting her. Wow, didn’t use to be so hard to blow up so many. Pink, that was the main color for today. Pink everything from the cupcakes, to her clothes to the table clothes. It would be beautiful! Plans don’t always go well and it takes for ever for the family to get there even when they were given the invitations a month ago. She always prepared for them to be at least an hour late. They granted her expectations now two years in a row. She was sure that this year would be no different.
Her mother was there and her boyfriend Nathaniel but it still was all a task that she took great pride in attempting for her little girl. She would prepare with elaborate decorations and great time and care on getting the cupcakes beautiful to the eye. This year they were to have a three in the middle of them. They were shaping up quit nice.
Jennifer had been a young mom but she adapted very well to caring for Zoey. From the day she was born the sparkle was in her eye as to how precious this sweet little baby was. The father was of no account. He only caused heartache and turmoil when he was present. She learned how to be strong at an early age. She had very little help from her parents as to the fact that they argued on a regular basis and they were so volatile that she was unable to count on them working anything out together. They loved their granddaughter but as a couple they could only bring her harm.
Zoey was a beautiful blond blue eyed little girl. Her smile and laughter melted so many hearts. She was full of life and growing so quickly. She was like her mother, so calm at heart yet so lovable to those who paid attention to her. She was a mirror image of her mothers love.
As the time grew closer for Zoeys party Jennifer grew more tired as she prepared the last of the details. The tablecloths were on, the cupcakes delicious and placed beautifully on the table. Pinks, purples, blues all in little princesses. Lots of work, but so many rewards yet to come. The food was complete with the hot dogs and the hamburgers for the adults. Nathanial’s contribution to the party.
It was close to time the family and friends were all starting to arrive. One, two, three the parents were of course apologizing for the later hour than requested but Jennifer took it in stride since she had expected the delay. Presents, piling high in the wake of the occasion. It was almost that time.
As the children played outside the adult guest chattered in the background to the every once in a while yell of “Hey, you know better than that, play nicely.” Food came first; presents and cake later as too give everyone time to arrive. It was almost as if a feeding frenzy had occurred. One thing this crew enjoyed was food of any sort!
Zoey, impatient and asking about her cupcakes and her presents pushed the food eating to a halt. It was time for the party to really begin and the queen of beauty who had patiently been waiting to have her day. Jennifer surrounded the little party table with Zoey in the middle and the songs began. So much laughter as she blew out the single little cupcake and then started giving the kids and adults their share of her party cakes, of course she had to remove the outside wrapper first. So many smiles and lights a flashing. She danced and sparkled as she opened her presents to find horses and hats and movies and so much fun calling her name.
Jennifer ran as if she was being chased by time itself. She was a busy momma with so much happiness and love for Zoey. She paid attention to the details, was there enough food, drink, cupcakes. Did the present wrapping get picked up? Was everybody thanked for the generosity that they showed to her and her daughter? Was there anyone that she hadn’t talked to or made sure to at least make them feel wanted at Zoeys party? She was very attentive and the day was closing.
As the family and friends began to leave Jennifer felt a sense of satisfaction. She had made it through the day. The third birthday of her beautiful little one was a success. All were happy and the comfort of success left her exhausted. As the mess was cleaned up and the rooms became empty she began to smile and as she looked lovingly towards her daughter. Jennifer felt a warm hand on her shoulder and a gentle kiss on her neck as Nathanial softly whispered into her ear, “Honey, just think, next year, for her fourth, we will have Fabian in our arms as we celebrate her birthday and plan for his first. You have done well my beautiful Lady. As always you spared no love.” He smiled and gently held her tight. “I love you more than words can say.” She showed so much strength and dedication to her family and her daughter. An Attitude of unintentional was so apparent. She gave from her heart not because she thought she had to impress any one. It was because she loved what she was doing and who all she did it for. Next year it would be even grander but at least she might have a little more energy……..

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Steven


Most mothers either hold their children to close or not close enough. You are always held closely to my heart because without you my world would fall apart! Dont ever think that being a parent is easy because God gives us hearts that break just as easy as yours and tough love isnt always so easy to hold onto. When you love your child you will always make mistakes. Its part of being human but when ...you love them more then life itself you learn to do whats right instead of whats easy! I love you babe! Dont ever forget your place in my heart! No one could ever be you! From birth till God brings you home you will always be at the top of my list! Yes, even on days when YOu dont like me very much! I am still here! On Earth or in heaven, my watchful heart and prayers will always be in your favor! A mothers love, my love is forever!
This is a just because I love you note and felt like you needed to know! You may make your own decision in this world now but remember that your mother will always love you even on those days when words just dont seem to be enough or make much sense. A mothers love really is forever. We may not always like or understand each others behaviors but thats why God made us individuals!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Changes

Life can sometimes be so unpredictable. It has so much beauty in so many different places. To share a life with someone and to learn to be OK with all their differences takes time but to love someone unconditionally takes a way of being. A new love a new life is sometimes harder on the heart then it is on the mind. When a heart breaks it crumbles into many pieces where our mind learns to say what we think and move on but our heart hurts for a much longer time. In families and relationships it is a lot easier to act as if life in general is an ease even when we all know that sometimes life is lived on a day by day basis because being in relationships can bring so many changes to your life. Letting a piece of yourself be shared with another human being is scary and to some of us could be dangerous if we don't stand up for ourselves. The biggest thought is that when we are young we are so very inexperienced and when we become older and yes wiser we also carry baggage over to each other. To be happy while learning to experience life but also to be happy while learning to rediscover life. Loving someone is the hardest thing that we can do. There sometimes is not a right way or a wrong way to love someone. There is only a right or wrong when it comes to our behaviors. When a heart loves it loves completely. The boundaries often become blurred as too what makes us happy and what helps us to hold onto what makes us feel whole. Being in misery is not a way of living. Being yourself and learning to face the changes in your life and accepting the changes as a challenge that you will welcome and over come is a blessing that sometimes we all need for cleansing the soul and rebooting who and what we have become.