A Mothers Voice

The room was quite. Not a movement or a thought was present outside of hearing her voice. The more she talked the deeper the sadness grew. The pain flowed out of her and settled into the room. The broadest of the strongest were shedding tears. Over 200 people watched and listened as she talked of a smile that daily encouraged others to stand strong. A warm body that was tantalized every day but yet he never let on just how terrorized his hours were and how alone he felt. Even in a room full of bodies his mother now felt the same. She meant good in his honor but although her words were what they needed to hear, her heart felt numb and the grief easily took over her world. The only piece that was holding her together was the need for her to make them all realize his many lingering effects were still present. Children listen to the unspoken words of each other. Their language all their own and sometimes deceitful to the adult ears. Not because they wish to hurt them but because their pain becomes so great that they are afraid to share it. Its a quite secret. There are no easy answers and more than that, no easy days. Smiles, love, attention and routine are all present but no words spoken as to keep the real world from being awoken to the trouble being dealt with. From one mother to another, listen silently to the body movements, to the cries observed. You know your child! You know when they grow different and when they grow dark. Pay attention to their outburst. Sometimes words are few and far between but behaviors are where the warnings come from. Listen to what is being said and open your heart to what you are feeling. There are warnings and some we can not see or change but at least make a conversation, don't be afraid to ask and most of all....let them know that you love them....friend, family, girlfriend or neighbor...Listen and make no regrets...Your words, you taking a chance out of your comfort zone could just be the saving grace needed... 

  

Take time to Listen, No regrets, we might be the first steps into the right direction.

My Greatest Gift

The Preacher asked us to remember what the “Greatest Gift” was that we had ever received. After I thought for a moment several things popped into my mind but the greatest gift for me has been the “Gift of Time.” The time that I was a teenager and my mom and I with some of my friends were heading out of town and we had a flat tire and it stopped us dead in our tracks. I Learned a lot about my mom and how cool she was that day. Another time My friends and I had met my mom for a supper and she tried to convince me we were expecting a little brother or sister. I never laughed so hard in my life. Then there was another time when I was in high school and I was so confused as to where my life was heading. I found myself at the lake with a pole in the water. A man appeared that day and began talking to me about high school and the endless possibilities a life can take. Was he an Angel in disguise...perhaps. I can remember the time spent with my mom when she first got sick. The notes she left me in a notebook beside her bed during her first surgery. She was my Angel and she knew I would gravitate towards being able to write about how I was feeling. That notebook was a moment in time I will never forget. My mother always knew how to share moments in time with me that were forever, even the last hug, a strong and long moment in time that she gave me before she passed away. On another day there was the gift of 17 stones that my son gave to me on Mothers Day to explain our 17 years together. The 9th birthday of a little girl all caught up in smiles along with her first night at the movies and first cook out. The time with the 18 year old and our Art show. Her dresses and hair and multiple dances and pictures. The most beautiful being the birth of the babies into our lives from Zoey, Caedynce and many others, to Maddie, Owen, Austin and then Emma. All moments in Time with Family. The first Christmas's with the ones you love to the 10 year Anniversaries and the beautiful grandchildren and their mamma's and papas. Births and birthdays young and old (Dads 70^th) included. All this spent with my partner in crime, sharing the true “Gift of Time” The Ability to love and the Time to do it in! Gods given Treasure! Use it Wisely! It truly is what you make it! What are your gifts of time?

NEGATIVITY, refusing to get up to meet the Challenges!

Negativety can be found in all of our lives and once in a while we are all guilty of being a part of it...None of us are perfect or innocent..In the year to come (2016) I am setting a challenge for myself and hopefully some of you will follow: I WANT TO MAKE MORE TIME TO SMILE..TO LOOK FOR THE POSITIVES IN THE FACE OF ALL THE POSSIBLE NEGATIVES. ...TO BE LOVING, DIRECT WHEN ABLE AND TO TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WANT TO BE TREATED. ..BEING NEGATIVE IS EASY BUT I WANT TO BE THE BETTER PERSON FOR ME...TO KNOW THAT IF I HAVE ONLY TODAY...THEN I HAVE LIVED IT IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY. How about you....can you find a challenge....make it yours and hold yourself to it! The best you is the one in discovery...keep an open mind and think outside the box. Only one truly to blame for your future forward. ..is you and your direction you presently head! YOUR PATH MAY BE GODS BUT YOUR CHOICES ARE ALL YOURS! So make some changes!