Time

Tonight i cant help but feel the jitters. When did I decide that alone was better? Did I decide or did i let others make the decision for me? So many questions yet so many different answers. How do we know when enough is enough and it is time for our life to change? How many changes can a person experience in a life time? My heart sighs and my mind is still a jumble. Its OK to feel like... you're in limbo. Its all part of us being human. The heart lingers for what it is familiar with. What it is use to and what it longs to have as comfort. Our mind boggles itself because the heart does not always agree with what we feel or want or think we need. We are just as cruel to ourselves sometimes as the world around us can be. We inflict pain on ourselves to feel alive and loved and wanted and needed. There are days that we want to be left alone and then other days that we cry for any one to answer the phone or even for a stranger to smile our direction. Pay it forward i tell my friend. Pay the kindness forward and you may be surprised what time will give you! Karma, is it Karma? Perhaps it is but whatever it is that is hidden underneath all of the confusion that comes with matters of the heart, time will make it better. Will it heal all of the pain and broken promises sometimes shared between others? No it does not all end that easy but time will make it easier. Easier and wiser is the magic that time holds. Easier and wiser!