A Mothers Voice

The room was quite. Not a movement or a thought was present outside of hearing her voice. The more she talked the deeper the sadness grew. The pain flowed out of her and settled into the room. The broadest of the strongest were shedding tears. Over 200 people watched and listened as she talked of a smile that daily encouraged others to stand strong. A warm body that was tantalized every day but yet he never let on just how terrorized his hours were and how alone he felt. Even in a room full of bodies his mother now felt the same. She meant good in his honor but although her words were what they needed to hear, her heart felt numb and the grief easily took over her world. The only piece that was holding her together was the need for her to make them all realize his many lingering effects were still present. Children listen to the unspoken words of each other. Their language all their own and sometimes deceitful to the adult ears. Not because they wish to hurt them but because their pain becomes so great that they are afraid to share it. Its a quite secret. There are no easy answers and more than that, no easy days. Smiles, love, attention and routine are all present but no words spoken as to keep the real world from being awoken to the trouble being dealt with. From one mother to another, listen silently to the body movements, to the cries observed. You know your child! You know when they grow different and when they grow dark. Pay attention to their outburst. Sometimes words are few and far between but behaviors are where the warnings come from. Listen to what is being said and open your heart to what you are feeling. There are warnings and some we can not see or change but at least make a conversation, don't be afraid to ask and most of all....let them know that you love them....friend, family, girlfriend or neighbor...Listen and make no regrets...Your words, you taking a chance out of your comfort zone could just be the saving grace needed... 

  

Take time to Listen, No regrets, we might be the first steps into the right direction.

My Greatest Gift

The Preacher asked us to remember what the “Greatest Gift” was that we had ever received. After I thought for a moment several things popped into my mind but the greatest gift for me has been the “Gift of Time.” The time that I was a teenager and my mom and I with some of my friends were heading out of town and we had a flat tire and it stopped us dead in our tracks. I Learned a lot about my mom and how cool she was that day. Another time My friends and I had met my mom for a supper and she tried to convince me we were expecting a little brother or sister. I never laughed so hard in my life. Then there was another time when I was in high school and I was so confused as to where my life was heading. I found myself at the lake with a pole in the water. A man appeared that day and began talking to me about high school and the endless possibilities a life can take. Was he an Angel in disguise...perhaps. I can remember the time spent with my mom when she first got sick. The notes she left me in a notebook beside her bed during her first surgery. She was my Angel and she knew I would gravitate towards being able to write about how I was feeling. That notebook was a moment in time I will never forget. My mother always knew how to share moments in time with me that were forever, even the last hug, a strong and long moment in time that she gave me before she passed away. On another day there was the gift of 17 stones that my son gave to me on Mothers Day to explain our 17 years together. The 9th birthday of a little girl all caught up in smiles along with her first night at the movies and first cook out. The time with the 18 year old and our Art show. Her dresses and hair and multiple dances and pictures. The most beautiful being the birth of the babies into our lives from Zoey, Caedynce and many others, to Maddie, Owen, Austin and then Emma. All moments in Time with Family. The first Christmas's with the ones you love to the 10 year Anniversaries and the beautiful grandchildren and their mamma's and papas. Births and birthdays young and old (Dads 70^th) included. All this spent with my partner in crime, sharing the true “Gift of Time” The Ability to love and the Time to do it in! Gods given Treasure! Use it Wisely! It truly is what you make it! What are your gifts of time?

NEGATIVITY, refusing to get up to meet the Challenges!

Negativety can be found in all of our lives and once in a while we are all guilty of being a part of it...None of us are perfect or innocent..In the year to come (2016) I am setting a challenge for myself and hopefully some of you will follow: I WANT TO MAKE MORE TIME TO SMILE..TO LOOK FOR THE POSITIVES IN THE FACE OF ALL THE POSSIBLE NEGATIVES. ...TO BE LOVING, DIRECT WHEN ABLE AND TO TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WANT TO BE TREATED. ..BEING NEGATIVE IS EASY BUT I WANT TO BE THE BETTER PERSON FOR ME...TO KNOW THAT IF I HAVE ONLY TODAY...THEN I HAVE LIVED IT IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY. How about you....can you find a challenge....make it yours and hold yourself to it! The best you is the one in discovery...keep an open mind and think outside the box. Only one truly to blame for your future forward. ..is you and your direction you presently head! YOUR PATH MAY BE GODS BUT YOUR CHOICES ARE ALL YOURS! So make some changes!

Mobility

To move up, to move back or just to move forward. Its in the eyes of the beholder. In the belief system that tells us we can. Its easy to get stuck in one place and feel like the world is either closed or closing around us. Suffocation is when you just dont know what way to go. Which way is up or which way is progress. A frame of mind as some say. Pray..and then pray some more.
When we are lost we can most often find ourselves begging for help. In a time of need we look towards our higher power. For many of us...for me...that higher power is God. We find our strength in prayer, songs and in worshiping together. We search for miracles, for comfort to warm our very hearts and souls. We look for that strength of "Mobility" in one way or another. As my preacher reminded me this morning, "Start off with a positive thought for the day!" Pray your heart out and then pray it out again. There is not room in our hearts for doubts and anger, disbelief and hate all of these things at the same time. Force them out and believe that if a Miracle is about to happen then there is only one being who is behind that dream. Stay positive even in  the times when you can barely hear yourself breathing because positivity grows more positivity. Just decide what you want for your life and the direction that you want to go and MOVE....believe, pray and demand as God requires us to pray for what we want. Just remember, the mobility we find may not always be the direction that we want...it maybe the direction that you, ...or someone else watching is in need of. Sometimes our lives are forever changed for reasons that we may never understand but God does everything with a power of certainty and direction! Someone is always learning from someone else!

Never Ending Road

There are moments when we can easily doubt the world around us. How did we come to the place where we are. Did we take a wrong turn or was it a right turn. There are just days that we can momentarily get lost in the right direction. 
When we set out to live our lives on a plan we draw out the years and the finances but yet we forget that these are wishes and dreams. These are not concrete happenings. The forks in the road sometimes are not always as clear cut as we wish they were.
Take some time out to really look at your life and think about what makes you whole and complete. Life can change in mid stream and just when we think our plan is almost successful.....God shows us his! Maybe you will find yourself exactly where you want to be in ten years but then again...Maybe your dreams are not quite the most important. There are always new possibilities for a never ending start to a fresh new life....at any age...

A Loving Touch

Days of hard work and nights of wonderment can occasionally form a hole inside of your heart. The why do I struggle? Why do I try so hard only to feel like a never ending failure? Life gets pretty hard sometimes for the young and the old. I sat and watched the little boy begin to cry. For whatever reason my urge to get up and comfort him was restrained. After only a few seconds I saw a little girl sit down beside him and start to comfort him. She began softly telling him it would be ok. It would be time to go home soon. They only had an hour and mom would be there to get them. Realizing it was his sister I begin to understand why God held me in one place. His tears stopped and a smile came over his face. They began to giggle and then another little boy joined them. It was their big brother.
As I set there and watched quietly my coworker had come out and set beside me. She began to tell me how well I was doing and as she spoke I could feel the frustration and struggle of why do I try begin to soften. I too had been struggling and silently crying, wanting to go home. Life had won a battle in two hearts on this day. For A little boy and a grown woman both were in need of a "Loving Touch" So, next time you may see someone struggling and doubt that you can do anything to comfort them, think again.  All you need is a kind word, a soft smile and a simple tender loving touch to change someone's whole world.

OUR LIGHT

There are times in this world that you can see so many opportunities that are right in front of you but the ability to pick what fits you most becomes a blur. The world is enriched with ways of living and choices that we have to make everyday. So many blessings but we have to reach and search for what we want and where our groove is that we fit into. Our motivation, our inner drive is what guides us in making our decisions. For some of us we just dive into where we think we should be. Whether its a career, a relationship or even just a way of life that seems to help us feel more the way we learn to call comfortable. For many others of us we are taught that even though we can hold the world in our hands and make decisions as to what parts of it we want to be part of....God or a higher power is the one who needs to guide us in all areas of our life. 

Decisions that determine where we belong are only hard if we let them be. Sometimes its easy to fight our place in this world because we let OUR LIGHT, our joy be tamed by our fears. It doesn't matter how old we are or how hindered we may feel inside...fear is fear and it can place us in a holding path very quickly. Everyone has potential but sometimes it takes others whose Light is fully shining to make us see what our direction is suppose to be. We must realize that its OK to be afraid from time to time but don't let the fear suffocate you! Have faith, find your inner self and reach for your dreams....YOUR LIGHT.......YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN A LIGHT FOR A REASON. SEARCH IT OUT!

A Feeling of Insight

There are days that life seems to slide in when we are not looking. A word, a sound or a sight that leads to a thought that brings a smile to our face. Enlightens our hearts and makes us happy for just a few extra minutes in the day. Moments that many of us share but sometimes pass by so quickly that we fail to hold onto the feelings that they bring. Life is not always about what we can earn or make in a day. Its more about who and what makes up our lifetime. What is the creamy center of us created from.The filling inside that makes us whole. We all have a smiling point. A moment where we realize, if even for a second, that life has something to offer us. So then why do we speed up those moments and tend to run quickly away from them. Take a few minutes and spread the moment by sharing your smile with someone else. You never know when you may be their feeling of insight! Their moment of hearing that word, that sound or seeing that sight that brings the smile. You may be exactly what they needed. Who knows, it could be, that they were really the moment that you needed. Make a choice to make a difference......