Simple

I seem to have woke up wondering what the definition of simple really is.I can not think of anything that does not hold at least a little bit of complicity. I breath everyday before I get out of bed and I find myself saying a morning prayer reminding myself always that it could be worse and that GOD does hand down real blessings. It is not a figment of my imagination. I do linger for the simple life of when I had no worries and adults had the responsibility of where I laid my head. Well, life may not be simple but it is beautiful from the sunrise to the sunset. I soothe myself with the soft sounds of the life right off my back porch. I sometimes think that nature is the only sure thing in life. It is always there if you just slow down and partake. It is the soothing that cost you nothing but a will, a will to want to calm yourself. My mom always smiled when we were outside.She knew how to see right through me and get to the problems in life. I miss her and I miss that. Mom's are a special gift from God because he needed someone on earth to handle some of us 24/7. For most of us his gift of love. I saw a friend of mine break down yesterday. I know that she is going through a tough time in her life but she always portrays strength. I admire her totally. To see her get upset and cry made me realize that I too need to be strong but we all need to slow down because God never promised us tomorrow or even today as far as that goes. We all have up and downs. This is not new to any of us. The important part is how we handle our lives and the effect that we place on others. It may take our daily hello or just our smile that keeps some one in this world today. BE CAREFUL what you say and do. OUR footprints on others can either be a memory of love or of destruction. How is that for the thought of the day. Remember to tell someone Hello, You may be the only one who does!!!!!!!!!

Kim

Not so foolish

Isn't it crazy how some things happen in life and it barely effects you. Other things happen and for whatever reason they are life altering. I will not ever be the same again after the last few days. I am still the same person just a little wiser and a little more to myself. Pain is a life changing tool. Yesterday I was different. Today I am not complete or healed , that will take time, I am just a little smarter, more careful and not so foolish. Another lives lessons learned. Another heartbreak. I guess God choose for me to learn my lessons at a certain age. He sure continues to teach me about life, love and relationships. Who to trust and how to protect myself. I guess my life will always be about survival but the reasons and the emotions for the survival is what changes. There is a lot of love in life and that love is what binds me to the pleasures of this world.

Tomorrow will be better

Some people can say that they hear us, understand us, appreciate us but still never really feel who and what we are really about or even pay attention to how bad they hurt us. It doesn't matter what happened to me, Its more just the fact that My heart hurts because something that matters so greatly to me feels as thou who hurt me were saying "Just tell her, she will deal with it and get over it." How untrue the thought is. Sometimes I still get surprised by how insensitive people in this world can be. I realize that I am not perfect but I do my best to look at others and see what binds their souls to pain and what releases their inner self. I love those who hurt me or it would not hurt so much. The last few years has been about opening my eyes and seeing opportunities pass me by. There are days that I just cant believe the pain that we as humans endure. What is light weight to some is life altering to others. My tears need to continue to flow for now. I need to release the pain and misunderstanding that I feel. Just for today, I need to feel sad and to cry so that I can make sure that tomorrow I do not feel the same numbness. Life is not easy, especially today. I now it will get better. Survival is not an option it is a direction. But for today, let me cry. Let me hurt. Let me be to myself. Haven t I earned the right for just one day. I know tomorrow will be better.I guess God decided that he had to scream at me to get me to listen. Now, that thought brought more tears but a smile to my face. My mom would call that stubbornness and maybe a sign of the times changing ahead for me. Tomorrow will be better!!!!!!!!!

A state of mind

A state of mind, of friction , of ease. A way to believe in the world and in yourself. I sometimes think that everybody needs a good cleansing. To cry until you just cant cry anymore. It helps to regenerate the soul. I sometimes clear my mind and regenerate just believing that tomorrow I will be better but for now I am entitled to do as I please and yell and scream at the top of my lungs if that is what I feel that I need to do. The common soul is so fragile and sometimes we all can feel like we are coming apart at the seems. The reality is that everybody has stress in their lives and its probably Gods way of letting us all remember just how human and imperfect we truly are. There is always going to be someone around that makes us feel......mmmm not truly appreciated. They over look all the things that we do or how we feel. I have dedicated my life to what I do. In a sense it has become me. I am always ready (unfortunately) to take on one more task. At least until I get up the strength to say no more and demand something else of myself and the people around me. So until then I and others like me, need to learn to breath and really look at our state of mind. We need to see the people around us and what is important and what can wait. So,slow down, breath and make your state of mind an ease.

Take some time

A moment or two is all it takes to let someone know how much you love them and how important they are to you in your life. As the years come and go and once again I have found myself so busy with the struggles of my life that I often have forgotten to say to others how important they are to me. I want all of you who are reading this moment from my life to know that it is not a fluke that you have it before you. You have in some way or another touched my life and I am a better person because of that special touch! My mom blessed me with a little wisdom of knowing when to share my heart, or the footprints on my heart. She in my past and now with my father’s examples raised me to appreciate the people in my life who mold me whether that is good or bad. Every life that touches another has an effect on each other. I could tell you all the heartaches and the beautiful moments that I have experienced this last year but I want my footprint to be one that I ask you to pay forward. Touch someone else’s heart in this year to come! Tell your loved ones and the ones that you pass with only a smile that there is a little hope in this world. We have lost many beautiful souls in the last year. Some were voiceful and others where quietly listening in the backgrounds, but they all had a purpose in our lives and in the lives of others around us. Take time to share a moment of your life with someone who has a meaning in your life. Don’t just speak the words of caring and understanding. Feel them in your heart and remember that God plans our lives, not us! So, make good use of yours and don’t forget to say thank you and praise him for each and every moment of happiness and sometimes even the sorrow because it is the tough times that shape us in to the characters that we become. Don’t just set an example for those around you; lead by an example and give yourself some breathing room because God knows that we all make mistakes.Thank you for all of the footprints, I treasure every one of them!

Life

Life has a way of telling us if we are allowed to feel or hold what it has to offer us. I have not wrote in my journal for a while now and a lot has changed over that time period. The loves of my life are ever changing in my depth but the here and now of what the world holds for me is what is amazing to me. The old and new friends! The old and new lessons combining within each other. Wow, what a life and all it has too offer! You have to love life as if there was ever another choice!

Vision

When you find yourself falling in love with someone you also find yourself wondering about every aspect of your life and theirs. If you are lucky enough to grow up together then for the most part you know how the other person may think and feel about different areas of life. When you don't have that luxury then your whole life turns upside down.So many times you can find your very essence hurting because you just cant seem to understand why they act the way they do. Should you be together more or apart more? How about time with friends and family? Should they be with you? How do you know to include them or exclude them? How do you know when you should be included or excluded? Why the Hell is this dating and falling in love thing so hard? It shouldn't be! Love is suppose to be easy and something that makes your heart over fill with so much happiness. You smile when being reminded of them. Your heart skips a beat just to hear their name but then why does it sometimes become such a mess so easily? If there is so much joy in loving someone then where does the pain and confusion come from. Why can one person get so bent out of shape simply because sometimes things don't go the way they wanted and they feel hurt. They feel hurt because there is no handbook on how to understand someone else's vision! It is a learning process that one has to endure in order to love another. Every one is different and that's the way we are suppose to be. However, when you love someone you have to be patient and get to know their differences and their likenesses to your own. If you truly love someone then you have to learn to accept them for everything about them not just the parts we love or can tolerate. We have to understand that all of us have bad and good days and that's what makes us a whole person. For some of us its getting to know the others way of thinking. How much space do they need to themselves? How much of me can they handle at any given time? How much of me loving them can they take before I scare them and make them feel smothered or the opposite and they back off because they think I don't love them at all? Love may be a beautiful thing but it can easily destroy a relationship because of lack of communication and the desire to make something work. People are just as different as one house to the next is. From the paint jobs, the material used to build them and the years of wear and tear. Family who raise each of us are different from their cultures as a whole to what we eat, what we watch on television, read, listen to on the radio or even how we communicate. Its these differences and the way we tolerate them or learn to use them to adapt in the world around us that makes us learn to and learn how to love another person. Our vision is different one from the other and its our visions of how we see loving someone special in our lives that determines if we can compromise with the one that we fall in love with. Life is not always easy when we are in love. Its just usually more fulfilled and manageable because a true love becomes a single love shared by two not held by just one!