Beautiful Soul

A heart so full of love but questions its very movement. Do I love or do I lust! Do I climb in and lose myself or do I stand strong and hold my own. To love another is to share all that you are but how can you share what you do not completely know. What answers can be found in loving another, or in loving oneself. One day to see the smiling face and feel the touch that holds you and binds you to another. The pawing, scratching of affection that scares the one back into two. The separation of when they feel like the have reached a point of bliss. The love for one another that stretches for a life time. A true love that cannot be broken without shattering a heart. A long time of love and reminders that true love forms a beautiful soul. No one alone, no love without holding one another and feeling their very essence of being. Breath for me for I can not breath alone. Feel for me for I do not want to be alone. Love comes in many forms but the love of a lifetime comes easily with only tones of challenge, for if its meant to be, the struggles will be gentle and the future will be slowly opened.

Crazy Ones

Sometimes the world at a glance can seem so unpredictable and scary. Its like setting on a geyser waiting for it too gush. These are the crazy days! The days when you just don't want to get out of bed because you know that your world just doesn't feel quite right. Then there are days that life is just waiting to complete you. It tempts you into feeling the right path that you should be heading down.As you silently struggle, or not, to do as you are directed. Some days are just not about making decisions. They are more based on trying to just survive through the hours of the day. For some of us it may even be better to just put those legs back under the cover and close your eyes. Sleep and pray for all the beautiful dreams in the day. Tomorrow you will wake up, a new person but your happiness will depend on your outlook for the day. So, think good and be positive. Reach as high as you can to find what makes you happy!

Simple

I seem to have woke up wondering what the definition of simple really is.I can not think of anything that does not hold at least a little bit of complicity. I breath everyday before I get out of bed and I find myself saying a morning prayer reminding myself always that it could be worse and that GOD does hand down real blessings. It is not a figment of my imagination. I do linger for the simple life of when I had no worries and adults had the responsibility of where I laid my head. Well, life may not be simple but it is beautiful from the sunrise to the sunset. I soothe myself with the soft sounds of the life right off my back porch. I sometimes think that nature is the only sure thing in life. It is always there if you just slow down and partake. It is the soothing that cost you nothing but a will, a will to want to calm yourself. My mom always smiled when we were outside.She knew how to see right through me and get to the problems in life. I miss her and I miss that. Mom's are a special gift from God because he needed someone on earth to handle some of us 24/7. For most of us his gift of love. I saw a friend of mine break down yesterday. I know that she is going through a tough time in her life but she always portrays strength. I admire her totally. To see her get upset and cry made me realize that I too need to be strong but we all need to slow down because God never promised us tomorrow or even today as far as that goes. We all have up and downs. This is not new to any of us. The important part is how we handle our lives and the effect that we place on others. It may take our daily hello or just our smile that keeps some one in this world today. BE CAREFUL what you say and do. OUR footprints on others can either be a memory of love or of destruction. How is that for the thought of the day. Remember to tell someone Hello, You may be the only one who does!!!!!!!!!

Kim

Not so foolish

Isn't it crazy how some things happen in life and it barely effects you. Other things happen and for whatever reason they are life altering. I will not ever be the same again after the last few days. I am still the same person just a little wiser and a little more to myself. Pain is a life changing tool. Yesterday I was different. Today I am not complete or healed , that will take time, I am just a little smarter, more careful and not so foolish. Another lives lessons learned. Another heartbreak. I guess God choose for me to learn my lessons at a certain age. He sure continues to teach me about life, love and relationships. Who to trust and how to protect myself. I guess my life will always be about survival but the reasons and the emotions for the survival is what changes. There is a lot of love in life and that love is what binds me to the pleasures of this world.

Tomorrow will be better

Some people can say that they hear us, understand us, appreciate us but still never really feel who and what we are really about or even pay attention to how bad they hurt us. It doesn't matter what happened to me, Its more just the fact that My heart hurts because something that matters so greatly to me feels as thou who hurt me were saying "Just tell her, she will deal with it and get over it." How untrue the thought is. Sometimes I still get surprised by how insensitive people in this world can be. I realize that I am not perfect but I do my best to look at others and see what binds their souls to pain and what releases their inner self. I love those who hurt me or it would not hurt so much. The last few years has been about opening my eyes and seeing opportunities pass me by. There are days that I just cant believe the pain that we as humans endure. What is light weight to some is life altering to others. My tears need to continue to flow for now. I need to release the pain and misunderstanding that I feel. Just for today, I need to feel sad and to cry so that I can make sure that tomorrow I do not feel the same numbness. Life is not easy, especially today. I now it will get better. Survival is not an option it is a direction. But for today, let me cry. Let me hurt. Let me be to myself. Haven t I earned the right for just one day. I know tomorrow will be better.I guess God decided that he had to scream at me to get me to listen. Now, that thought brought more tears but a smile to my face. My mom would call that stubbornness and maybe a sign of the times changing ahead for me. Tomorrow will be better!!!!!!!!!

A state of mind

A state of mind, of friction , of ease. A way to believe in the world and in yourself. I sometimes think that everybody needs a good cleansing. To cry until you just cant cry anymore. It helps to regenerate the soul. I sometimes clear my mind and regenerate just believing that tomorrow I will be better but for now I am entitled to do as I please and yell and scream at the top of my lungs if that is what I feel that I need to do. The common soul is so fragile and sometimes we all can feel like we are coming apart at the seems. The reality is that everybody has stress in their lives and its probably Gods way of letting us all remember just how human and imperfect we truly are. There is always going to be someone around that makes us feel......mmmm not truly appreciated. They over look all the things that we do or how we feel. I have dedicated my life to what I do. In a sense it has become me. I am always ready (unfortunately) to take on one more task. At least until I get up the strength to say no more and demand something else of myself and the people around me. So until then I and others like me, need to learn to breath and really look at our state of mind. We need to see the people around us and what is important and what can wait. So,slow down, breath and make your state of mind an ease.

Take some time

A moment or two is all it takes to let someone know how much you love them and how important they are to you in your life. As the years come and go and once again I have found myself so busy with the struggles of my life that I often have forgotten to say to others how important they are to me. I want all of you who are reading this moment from my life to know that it is not a fluke that you have it before you. You have in some way or another touched my life and I am a better person because of that special touch! My mom blessed me with a little wisdom of knowing when to share my heart, or the footprints on my heart. She in my past and now with my father’s examples raised me to appreciate the people in my life who mold me whether that is good or bad. Every life that touches another has an effect on each other. I could tell you all the heartaches and the beautiful moments that I have experienced this last year but I want my footprint to be one that I ask you to pay forward. Touch someone else’s heart in this year to come! Tell your loved ones and the ones that you pass with only a smile that there is a little hope in this world. We have lost many beautiful souls in the last year. Some were voiceful and others where quietly listening in the backgrounds, but they all had a purpose in our lives and in the lives of others around us. Take time to share a moment of your life with someone who has a meaning in your life. Don’t just speak the words of caring and understanding. Feel them in your heart and remember that God plans our lives, not us! So, make good use of yours and don’t forget to say thank you and praise him for each and every moment of happiness and sometimes even the sorrow because it is the tough times that shape us in to the characters that we become. Don’t just set an example for those around you; lead by an example and give yourself some breathing room because God knows that we all make mistakes.Thank you for all of the footprints, I treasure every one of them!

Life

Life has a way of telling us if we are allowed to feel or hold what it has to offer us. I have not wrote in my journal for a while now and a lot has changed over that time period. The loves of my life are ever changing in my depth but the here and now of what the world holds for me is what is amazing to me. The old and new friends! The old and new lessons combining within each other. Wow, what a life and all it has too offer! You have to love life as if there was ever another choice!